Been awhile...
Mood:  lazy
Topic: @uNiVeRSiTY/WoRK
Had gone for a really nice show...
This was on Sunday..

Been pretty busy lately..

WHat have i been doin?
Was busy playing pool.. it's an addiction i tell ya!!

Anyways.. I enjoyed myself last Sunday..

took some potrait pictures of myself too... hehehe...

This is me in classical look...

and... this is me in black and white...

and.. these are my friends in colour..
thankx for lighting up my day..
as bright as the sun...

Btw.. it's Merdeka month..
tomorrow's our 48th Independance..!

SO happy it's gone this far..

Sigh.. am so sleepy...

In your arms.. i am free...
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: NoVeL
She looks at him.. she smiles.
"Why must you care so much for me?" she mumbles as she hugs him tight.
She shed a tear in his arms. She wonders how long can he be her charm.

"What's wrong sayang?" he asked. Looking at her face full of tears of sadness.

"Nothing, baby. I'm ok." she mumbles. Hugging him more tighly then ever. She wonders more and more. What if she turns to be like a person she doesn't want to be? ' Will he still be there for me?' she wonders quietly.

"Your eyes lie. Something is wrong. You were ok the whole night long. Until we came back you break into sobs. What is wrong, sayang?" he ask persistantly.

She just burries her head in his chest. Wanting cry, which she thinks best. But that was something she could never do. After a great night outing with him. She got up and watch the show. Laughing on que and giving a good smile. He knows she won't talk. Yet, he stayed by her and watch.

She shed another tear but quickly she catches it. Feeling weak and not in the proper state. She wishes that he would leave; but then again, she can't ask for that either. She needs him to be with her thru the night.

Many girls would love to be in his arms. He's so charming and kind. He knows how to treat his woman. She is happy he chose her to be in his life.

Watching the tele, she hugs him. Happy to have him understand her well. He knows she's sick. He knows she has something in her mind. He knows she cannot say it to him what's bothering her at that instant. He kept quiet. He rubs her shoulders; saying nothing at all. Signalling that he knows she needs him to just be there.

He looked at her teary eyed. "Why do you have tears in your eyes?" she asked. "Probably dust, sayang." he said. She smiled. She knew he was having tears for having her in his arms. She smiled at him and hugged him closely.

That night he gave her comfort that she seeks. Security that she asked for. It was that night he gave her the trust that he will try to make it work. That night when everything else had fallen apart on her; she had him. She was in his arms.

She smiled. Things does not look that bad when he is around. Her future. Her hope.

Midnight came, and he had to leave. She hugged him for one last time and smiled. He kissed her forehead. Renewing his promise to take her away one day. To build a life together.

He left her alone at home. She faced what she had to face. She slept hoping it would be a brighter day tomorrow.

NO... learn to say it...
Mood:  irritated
Topic: @uNiVeRSiTY/WoRK
You know when timing is never perfect???
Well.. this is just the time..

Why?
Well... I was pretty busy with tests to the point that there was nothing else I could think of..
Now that my test is over, I'm currently free of my mind from test and exams...

For the first time, I am so free from any work..
All I want to do is to have a good time and hangout with my man... that is what in my mind...

Then...

This is the current situation...
When I was really full of test, my mind was pretty much occupied.. even when I wanted to go out, I was never of the right mind of enjoying my time..
So, at most of the time I had suggested my man to stay home and rest..
BUT, he had insisted on bringing me out...

NOW...

Well...
My mind is FREE..
I EXPECT to have a good time..
SO much for expectations..

I call him, he's tired..
He says, "Let's see first, ok?"
Even yesterday, when I met up with him,
he was reluctant to even confirm to go out with me on Sunday..

I want so much to go watch a movie that I won.... the show is today.. but, he seems not willing to bring me there...
I want to go for a play at 8:30pm.. but, I am so SURE that he is gonna say that he is gonna be tired.. body not tuned and as such..

I'm just irritated!

When I am free... he is not at the right will..
When I am full of test... he insist on my mind being of clear mind by going out with me...

I even met up with his cousin...
Had a good laugh and good time.. but, not a full good time... behind my mind, I have test and assignments to finish..

I guess..
it's about time I let him be on his own..
I don't need a person who just wants me for the time that's convinient for him..
and not of my convinience..

I'll learn to say "NO"

Nothing beats rain in the morning...
Mood:  chatty
Topic: @uNiVeRSiTY/WoRK
Things to do during my alleged long break...

Friday - Sunday

1. Study for Criminal Procedure Code (CPC)... test is on Tuesday... 22nd August, 2005... (3-4pm)

2. Study for Civil Procedure... test on Wednesday... 23rd August, 2005(3-4pm)

3. Study for Public International Law... test on Wednesday... 23rd August, 2005 (6-7pm)

On top of these tests that I have to prepare for, I have Evidence work to finish up...

Tutorials go on as usual on Tuesday... which is at 2-3pm... Evidence.. gilers laa....

Hmm... what more can I expect.. the best of course... Thank God on Wednesday the tutorial is cancelled... so, I CAN try to allocate the empty slots to study... IF I do laa...

Time to walk up 4th floor to confirm the time of CP 1 test..... Ha ihh....

Reminisce...
Mood:  amorous
Topic: WiTH MY MaN
Nearing to the point of my 2 years continous relationship with my man...

Felt like blogging his first few sms that he gave me... yes.. I kept them still in my handphone.. How did I know he was one special guy? I dunno.. he just was!

Elo there neighbour, sori 2 wake u up. Sajeje nak kacau. Just reply yer msg. Okla. c u wen i c u k. Take care - 02:18:31am 07-10-2003

This was his first sms to me... He replied to my message in friendster and also sms-ed me to tell me that he just messaged my friendster.. Back then, he was working late night shifts and always have this late night outings with his friends.. I never did seem to mind.. Immune to the fact that boys will always want to meet up with his friends late at nights... So, I let him be.. and plus, we were only friends back then...

He drove in front of my house.. and had asked me to wait for me downstairs... Wheeling in front of my house to go home (he is my neighbour after all..) in his mom's pajero, he looked my way.. and smiled...

Yea yea, thats d 1st taim i smile (sengih) at u. MALU siot. MUAHAHAHA -09:05:22pm 09-10-2003

We got together... in October itself.. one fine night after chatting online.. It's funny how we are neighbours and we still chat online and also call each other... That night, after him making a point to mark me as his girlfriend, he had made sure to sms me.... and this was what he had said...

I love u sayang -12:18:01am 23-10-2003

Was it too soon for such words to be uttered? was it too soon to be together after 2 weeks of being in each other's presence? I guess not..

It's evident by looking at our situation right now.. He holds my hand when we're walking.. He makes sure I have a shoulder to cry on... He was and is still there when I have scarry hospital visits to go too.. The biopsy... the operation that I might be having next year.. The limp that I have, he's not ashame of walking with me..

I guess, he was my blessing.. from Him.. and for that.. Alhamdullillah..

I thank you God for making it lighter for me to live my tested life...

too soon to know if he'd be mine? yes.. but, i'll enjoy this ride and remember the memories should anything happen...

Let's hope not...