Testing this out...

You know... there's so much i can do... but so little time to do it. Sigh.

 

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After awhile... neglect
Mood:  suave
Topic: Gibberish

It's almost 50th year of Merdeka... and I'm back here.

 

Will be back. It's 3am now. 

Oh God.. I think I'll start a novel..
Mood:  chatty
Topic: Gibberish
"What do you see in her?" One asks....
"She's not pretty.... even my friend says so... She's just an average beauty.. Not that gorgeous.. not that prettier than I..."

I know this for a fact that you are jealous of me and her.. I know that you can't stand the fact I chose her than you.. But, she has a quality that you will never have.. She has a good heart...

Who knows what the heart wants... but I know that for a fact that I want her..

I'm amaze you cannot be happy for me... I'm just happy to be with who I am with now.. You are not the one I choose.. so be it.. Leave the questions to yourself...

With that, I smiled to you and said..

"She might not be a beauty to you or your friend... But she is who I choose to be with... I'm sorry if you don't understand my taste..."

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When I look back... I remembered how much I'd be amazed at the conversations of girls amongst themselves when they compare the beauty of one's girlfriend...

Superficial... that's what young people are like nowadays... Sigh.. I wonder...

~My ramblings in the law lab..01:57pm 18082005~

Dear journal... had only 1 tutorial, no class!
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Gibberish
Dear journal...
Taking a break from my juggle of reading the work I'm suppose to end by August... and also watching Desperate Housewives to let out my heart tonight...
I woke up with such a lazy feeling.. I really wanted to meet up with my man today.. I didn't feel like going to uni.. I guess the fact that I'm so nearing to that time of the month is making me extra clingy... That's why when I was hanging out with him yesterday, I was rather clingy... I had clinged on him on our way to have our aimless walks in OU... He had teman me dinner @Johnnys.. and then, we had foosball and pool.. I won.. or rather, the team I was representing had won.. For Manchester United of course! Pool? Well, he was a good teacher... I love it when he was teaching me.. Normally I'd be really malu to to be taught by my boyfriend... But he is different... My sayang is very patient.. He doesn't ridicule me for the way I was trying to hold the que... He was really patient and understanding... Some other guys would probably gave up.. Heck... any gal would give up too...
Well, today I found out I got one of the daily questions correct in the kickstart thingy... but I guess my slogan sucked big time.... Oh well.... Nevermind...
As I was surfing the net, my lecturer had called me up to inform me that the class is cancel.. Ahh.. most of you would say, "Waaa.. Lecturer calls her.." But before you think that, bare in mind, with this info, I have to go class and let the others there know that there's no class... The class is @10am... and I was the bearer of this good news.. In other words, I have to go to uni eventhough there's no class @10am... I was on my merry way thinking, okies, I can spend time in the cafe for an hour before my next class....
As we were approaching uni, nearing Batu Caves, I realized, I don't think I'm gonna b having a class @11am either... I was so sure there was a class... but, as my memory serves me right, last Thursday, my lecturer had cancelled in advance! That simply means, no class and tutorial for the day... So.. that would mean I had only one class to go to.. and it's not even a class.. It's a tutorial! Oh MY... A tutorial? it was 2pm... that was all that I had to do in uni today!!!
Okay, some people would actually skip it altogether and stayed home.. But, I guess, I'm not some people.. I can't afford to do that.. I feel that for everyday I sengaja skip, I'd be punish later for it.. As going to uni is an amanah from my parents to me to study.. As that is the only duty and obligation I have for now.. It does not seem fair to skip it...
Bearing this in mind *whilst cursing @the fact there's no class*... I went to the library.. Good old library.. It was simply pretty... Yes... I'm weird.. But I love the atmosphere of being surrounded by books... It gives me this relaxed feeling.. Plus, it's SO air-conditioned that I don't feel like going anywhere else... I got myself the cases that I needed to copy.. Gotten the case assignment for Evidence class.. and I had a head up over my fellow friends of today's tutorial @2pm when I met Nor... She had hers yesterday and I had gotten tips of what was gonna be asked and also the case that the lecturer had asked us to read on for next week's Tuesday tutorial... Wow... Talk about fast track.. I guess, there was a blessing to the fact that I had to come to uni and had nothing to do until 2pm..
Now, I'm just waiting for my man to come back.. I'm reading up on some of my class notes to brush up for tomorrow.. but I'm also very eager to finish reading this thing that was assigned to me personally.. It's a rather interesting article which I wish I could share.. But, sadly I can't.. after all, this will be going for publication in September..

Other news? Going to Hotel Nikko this Saturday... woo hoo... *scandalous*

~transmission ends 11:55pm 26072005~

Ladies leave your man@home!
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: Gibberish
Dear journal...
Was surfing the net and found a pretty interesting bulletin to share here amongst my multiply contacts.. but before I do, let me just state that I am soooo tired today.. my cousin Amir came by my house.. all is well... We had so much fun... It would have been a triple fun if my sister was around... *sigh* I miss my sister...
Anyways... here are the things I found meaningful....

" If "
if a man wants you,
nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you,
nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve,
then heck no, you can't "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along,
then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The ONLY person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant.
Why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.
He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior.
Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...
even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...
compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships..
.there is nothing cute about baggage,
deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...
a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...
look for someone complimentary...
not supplementary.

Dating is fun...
even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes....
when a man always know where you are,
and your always readily available to him
- he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Interesting, ain't it? I do believe it... and shall keep it in mind.. this is the thought of a lady...

~transmission ends 10:05pm 24072005~